Misgendered FTM Slut

About me: NO, I don't want to talk to you on teleguard, kik, session or whatever else. Just no, STOP ASKING. And if you don't get an answer over weeks and weeks = Consider me not being interested and stop harassing me. Born and raised as a girl. Got mentally sick thinking I could become a man by having surgeries and taking hormones. Now I am a mutilated female, sterile and titless, boyish face. I am looking for an owner and/or a dad. Realized I will never be a guy and accepted I am a female a while ago. I know I am not a woman anymore, but a female piece of "cnc" meat. Definitely prefer older guys (hence "dad"), should be from Europe at least and be able to host. I am NOT interested in guys who have wives sitting at home. Sex is very important to me, and thus is his dick. I need girth more than length. But yea people call me a size queen. I just need the dick to hurt while fucking. (No there is NOTHING you could ever compensate that with, no fisting no toy no nothing). So please, if you are sadistic, dominant, 40+ y.o. and enjoy to abuse and destroy mutliated females even further, send me a message calling me a worthless piece of shit. So that I know you've read my profile AND agree with the value I assigned to myself.